Holy anxiety, Batman! Been back and forth to bed a few times and it’s not taking so I guess I’ll write. Sometimes that helps. A while ago I mentioned a video that gets my little PTSD heart all teary.
Try to forget that this is a Supernatural fanvid. It’s sort of “alternate universe” anyway, but it shows this character who has literally been to HELL and seen all sorts of awful in his life. And then see him trying to live a normal life. Wake up in the morning… those moments you lie in bed, wondering how you’re going to get through another day. Then putting on your best face and going to work. Then the moments when that unreal reality sneaks its way through. And you try to lose yourself in the monotony of repetitive tasks, till another reminder finds its way in. See the contrast between the memories and the present day… and how the memories themselves seem to be an alternate universe. Not really real. Not until you are reminded again.
This video could possibly be trigger-ish for some, so keep that in mind before watching. For me, this was like finally being able to SEE the experience that just doesn’t have words. It was affirmation. But it is somewhat graphic and I don’t want it to be something that causes a flashback or anxiety itself.
video by Loki/SecretlyToDream “Till the Sun Starts To Cry”
The first time I saw this video, I cried and cried. It was beautiful to me and I couldn’t stop watching. I would be REALLY interested to know what ya’ll think. Does it still translate if you’re not familiar with the show?
Oct 17, 2014 @ 10:34:38
i agree, it captured the pain and torture of ‘hell’, ie. the pain and torture of living life with severe depression, where opening your eyes is overwhelming pain. and it captured the mundane routine-ness of everyday life when you are capable of maintaining it…and finally it showed that the pain was not ‘in your head’, but was real, and that is why ‘normality’ never completely covers it up, distracts us enough.
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Oct 17, 2014 @ 18:04:10
Thank you 🙂
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