Mah bellydancing belly

So tomorrow I head out of town to meet with my surgeon and get my labs done and ready for surgery on wednesday.  As much as I’m looking forward to it, I’m still having moments of anxiety and feeling sorry for myself.  I just keep thinking about how my tummy will never look the same.  And it feels weird.  When Halloween was here, I’d thought about dressing up in one of my bellydance outfits and as I tried it on, I just got really bummed about that part of things.  I haven’t danced in a long time ’cause I haven’t felt well, but I miss it and always hoped to return.  There’s really nothing that says I can’t now, but I’m not sure how comfortable I’d ever be performing in front of people knowing my “poop bag” is showing.

So, because I was feeling nostalgic and stuff, I uploaded a few videos and thought I would share them.  I’ve almost got a smile in some of these videos, so you can tell I loved it.  Bellydance gave me strength, confidence, release, and sisterhood.  Things I would love to bring back into my life.

 

This is my very first performance, when I was just a wee baby bellydancer. I’m the one on the far right with the short red hair:

This one was my first experience coming up with any choreography.  My friend and I worked it ourselves and it was fun.  I’m the one beginning on the left.

 

The last troupe I danced with, we called ourselves “Inara” and it included my BFF, Teri.  We did 2 different choreographies.  The first one, I am the one in orange, starting on the left.  (I also made the hair pieces we wore, something I was pretty proud of!)

 

This last one was the second-to-last time I ever performed.  But this is another I got to input a lot on choreo and it was a fun one to dance to.  (I’m second one on left and I’m really still just a baby bellydancer.)

 

 

So, now you have an idea what I look like and you know one of my biggest loves in the world.  I hope I get the guts to return to it someday.  If not, then I wanted to make this post as a reminder to myself of everything bellydance was to me.  It’s one of those things I always see my “dream self” doing, so either way I think it will always be a big part of my soul.  Hope you enjoyed the videos!

 

Just a heads up, I probably won’t be writing much for the next week or so.  Not really sure yet what to expect from the surgery but I hear it’s a difficult recovery so it might be a while before I feel up to much sitting at the computer.  But, hopefully, I will still be reading (even if I don’t comment) and I’ll try to post an update here and there.  Love and thanks to you all for all the support you’ve been giving me lately.  Surgery is Wednesday.  Wish me luck!

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