Just a little something

So, husband had to go out of town for 2 weeks for work.  Which of course means I need to arrange babysitting for myself since I can’t stay home alone like that.  So I spent spent a couple days with the nieces (yay), then caught a ride to my parents house for the next couple of weeks.  In just the last couple days I have seen family and friends and have actually had a number of good experiences.

I’ve had a lot of things I’ve wanted to say.  As I’ve said before, I survive by trying to go unnoticed.  But I’ve been opening my mouth a lot the last couple of days, including a very loud conversation with my parents, grandparents and aunt about gay rights today.  I was pretty much on my own side, which I expected.  I did not expect any minds to change and no one was angry, but it felt so great to speak my mind so unexpectedly and to just feel honestly me!  I don’t know how anyone else felt about it later, and it kinda doesn’t matter?  Mostly, I’m just so high on being me for once.

Also, my aunt thinks I’m whimsical.  She meant it as an absolute compliment and I absolutely took it as one.  Really, one of the nicest things I’ve heard about myself in a long long time.

6 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. CC
    Mar 09, 2015 @ 11:50:21

    That sounds great Kmara! Whimsical..well, I think you are kind and very kick ass. Whimsical fits right in there.
    I think it is awesome you are having a great time. And that you can freely be you. To the does it matter? I think it does, when we speak a truth, about ourselves or an issue that matters. Even if no minds change, it is important to speak it, because if we stay silent on matters of importance, we are complicit. That does not mean we have to scream or fight, as you pointed out.
    Just yay, yay, yay! To the whole thing. You whimsical little thing you 😉

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    • kmaramarie
      Mar 09, 2015 @ 22:33:13

      Cool… I have a whole post in mind about your description and how I am seen… Thank you 🙂
      About the “does it matter?” I meant that it didn’t matter if anyone ended up offended or angry. Or if they thought less of me. IT DEFINITELY mattered that I spoke my truth. And that I did it, I think, kindly, even if it was forcefully. I leave too many thing in my life unsaid and I just plain don’t want to anymore. I’m not even sure I can. I think it’s literally bad for my health. So yes, THAT mattered. I mattered.
      Just love you 🙂

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      • CC
        Mar 09, 2015 @ 22:54:59

        Yes, sooo bad for our health too..and others as well..LOL…but seriously it is bad when you keep things in…
        Just love you toooo….. ❤

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  2. a nose that is maori
    Mar 21, 2015 @ 20:28:07

    We don’t know of each other however i wanted to say that I think you were awesome pushing back and allowing yourself to be heard like you did. I’ve been learning how to push back and have my voice heard a lot more this year. And to echo CC, it’s not good for ourselves or our bodies to keep stuff in.

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    • kmaramarie
      Apr 05, 2015 @ 08:09:34

      Thanks so much for your encouraging words. .. i am so sorry for not responding sooner. .. I’ve been dealing with some big internal stuff and pretty much avoiding social media all together, but i look forward to getting to know you better!



      • a nose that is maori
        Apr 06, 2015 @ 22:15:57

        You’re so welcome. No worries about having responded sooner. I understand that life gets pretty hectic at times. Yeah, I’m looking forward to getting to know you better too. Write when you can.


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