Why do I keep using the #AlwaysKeepFighting hashtag…

Why do I keep using the #AlwaysKeepFighting hashtag? Welcome to the #SPNFamily…

A couple of months ago Jared Padalecki, one of the stars of Supernatural, started a campaign to raise money and awareness for charities like To Write Love On Her Arms.  He shared a lot about his own struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts, and his own need for strength and help.  It started with a tee shirt that said “Always Keep Fighting”.  The fandom really took to it.


For me personally, I came across the Always Keep Fighting campaign on a really really shit day.  It was really one of those days where I just was asking “What the hell am I here for?”  And those words, and his openness and sincerity, actually brought me to tears.  It was just one of those moments you get too rarely when you feel like the world is telling you something.  And I was like… “Man, Jared!  How did you know I needed this today?”

I’m actually sort of addicted to buying geek t-shirts.  It’s pretty much all I wear.  But I usually go for the subtle.  Not the whole- “celebrity on a t-shirt” thing.  Even Jared mentioned he wasn’t sure about putting his face on the shirt, but everyone convinced him it made it more personal (I agree). And… while I wasn’t sure if I would wear it (because- face on a t-shirt?), I knew I wanted to support it and TWLOHA.

It’s kinda become one of my favorite shirts.  When I’m having another shit day, wearing the shirt has reminded me of the message and kept me going.  And people have noticed it and either recognized it themselves or asked about it.  Which is awesome!  YES.  Let’s have a healthy dialogue about mental illness, suicide, addiction, depression, PTSD.  YES TO ALL THIS!

Since the original campaign ended, it has grown into a much bigger thing that both stars, Jared and Jensen Ackles, AND the fans are continuing to raise money and awareness for.  In the last couple of weeks, Jared has been experiencing his own personal crisis and the whole thing has just blown up in response (in a good way).  It’s actually kind of reminded me how awesome people can be.  The world is not full of hate and horrible things.  There is a lot of love out there.


If you’re not familiar with these guys and this fandom, it might be easy to see this and think that it’s not sincere.  That it’s a bunch of hot guys getting their faces on t-shirts and making more money.  Publicity stunts.  But you wouldn’t have to look into things very far to realize these guys really just want to do a good thing and use the fan following they have to accomplish great things.

You might also find some weird stuff.  The fandom is known for some of it’s weird stuff.  Not gonna lie.  BUT the fandom really is also known for doing some really awesome things like this.  The official hashtag used to be “SPNfamily” (I don’t know, maybe it still is…) but #AKF and #AlwaysKeepFighting are really what it’s all about.  And hell yes, I will go down with this ship.  Even if I still appear to be a silly fangirl.  I don’t care.  This thing, this show, these people, this fandom, show love that gives me strength on days I’m not sure I can find it.   (Even though I will NEVER forgive you, writers, for that THING YOU DID IN EPISODE 10×21.  grrr… the only time I’ve ever hated Show :/  I’m still not over it.)

PHEW.  SO on that note, I’m gonna leave another reason I love this fandom.  I haven’t posted a fanvid in a LONG time guys.  And this one is technically a parody, so it doesn’t count.  And, true, I’m not sure you’ll really get it or love it if you don’t know the show, but… oh well.  It makes me happy 🙂 ummm spoilers for season 9 and 10 though, if that is important to you?

By the way, the cast cameos at the end- they heard about this video being made and totally volunteered to do it just because they knew the fans would love it.  No pay.  Just love.

And you know what?  Because I’m in such a giving mood… hahah… (actually, it’s probably just the late hour getting to me) but I’m gonna leave ya with one more gem.  But this is one that always gives me chills and makes me cry.  This song is sort of our anthem…

Ok.  Thank you.  Good nite.  I love you all 😉

3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Kristin
    Jun 01, 2015 @ 09:29:34

    I just wanted to say briefly that I came upon your blog while doing searches to find articles and images to put together to basically get through to those I try to explain the importance of the #AlwaysKeepFighting campaign and what it’s done for so many. My family doesn’t seem to grasp it’s not something that I am so deeply involved in and passionate about because of who started the whole life saving/changing movement. No it didn’t hurt it was Jared because otherwise I may not have met the members of our SPN Family and had my life saved when I felt like I couldn’t go on. I still struggle and may always do so (I am 42) but the fight isn’t as scary and lonely. What you said about if you’re not familiar with the guys and the fandom was everything I have been trying to get across. For now I am going to share this perfect blog which feels like much of what I feel and say though not ever heard. I feel that the whole Supernatural family and fandom is so under rated and acknowledged for being more than just some fans of any series. I belong to many fandoms, none of which are as committed and connected as this is. I hope you can forgive if I sound to be rambling a bit. I am going to keep reading and sharing what I can. Thank you for being who you are. I may not know you (I don’t think so anyways) But can still appreciate what you have and do seem to offer others.

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    • kmaramarie
      Jun 01, 2015 @ 21:35:53

      Thank you so much! My family doesn’t get it either… or any of my friends I think. A lot of them, because of their religious background, won’t even give it a chance. So I’ve kind of given up on trying to win people over, but I’ll just keep on proclaiming my own love! You probably don’t know me, I really haven’t been involved with most of fandom- it’s hard to find spaces that just enjoy it and don’t argue about it. So I’m more of a lurker online really… mostly just share my love here on my blog. ‘Though the community at MarkWatches.net is pretty cool. But yeah, never had a chance to go to a con or anything and meet other fans. But I was so happy to read your comments and hear someone else understand how I feel!!! And yeah, #AlwaysKeepFighting couldn’t have come at a better time in my life. I might have sold my soul to it at this point 😉 But it DOES remind me to keep going and seeing the recent outpouring of love that people have expressed this last couple of weeks just strengthens that and gives me that feeling that there is enough good out there to keep hanging on for 🙂
      Thanks again for reading and sharing how you feel. If you have a blog, I would love to follow!



    • kmaramarie
      Jun 01, 2015 @ 21:48:56

      Hey Kristin- I wanted to add one more thing. I don’t know if you read the next post on my blog about the rape kit backlog, but honestly? Jared being open and honest and sharing his own struggle with depression is kind of what gave me the courage to share my own story to bring awareness and support to that issue. I mean, it was, I think an important step in my own journey for me take, but I’m honestly not sure I would have done it on my own. Thinking about him, being a public figure, putting his name and face and story to an important cause is really what gave me the strength. ❤



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